Problem - I'm sorry.

Hello and good evening,
this is Hidayuki!


How do you do?
Hidayuki is as well as ever.

I would like to talk about my singing and dancing activities that has been started over five months ago since May 2010.

I've started posting videos of me singing and covering songs on Youtube using my second account, hidayuki13.
I sang japanese songs. And as for June 11, 2010 I started posting videos of me dancing. Except for Marion Raven's End of Me, I sing and dance japanese songs entirely.

As for today, October 21st, 2010 I have covered about 4 dance, 8 songs and one dance of my own version.
In chronology, they are:
1. [song cover] Hajimari no Kaze by Hirahara Ayaka (Malay ver.) - I translated this song myself and tried to cover it.
2. [song cover] Rinne: -Rondo- by ON/OFF in my own cover of female version.
3. [dance cover] Rinne: -Rondo- (1st ver.) - dance by me.
4. [song cover] Fukisusabu Kaze No Naka De by WAG (female version).
5. [song cover] LALALA Shiawase no Uta by ℃-ute.
6. [song cover] Dakishimete Dakishimete by Berryz Kobo.
7. [song cover] Soku Dakishimete by ℃-ute.
8. [dance cover] Dakishimete Dakishimete by Berryz Kobo.
9. [song cover] Lalala - Sososo by Mano Erina.
10. [song cover] End of Me by Marion Raven.
11. [dance cover] Dance de Bakoon! and Namida no Iro by ℃-ute.
12. [dance cover] FOREVER LOVE by  ℃-ute.
13. [song cover] FOREVER LOVE by ℃-ute.


That's all so far, I planned to do more in the future. However, I've changed my mind. There's been several problems and issues that I have encountered that made me removed all of my videos on Facebook, Youtube and even here, in my blog.


For over five months, I've been posting videos without any interference. However, since last week, there's been gossips about me, about my videos on Facebook. One of the teachers was my History teacher, exclaimed to my best friends,  that she saw my videos on Facebook using her child's Facebook account. Before this, I know that there is one teacher, my Biology who knew about my activity. But she was pretty open to my videos. She even said that she looked forward for my next videos. But since last week, I've received four complaints from the teachers about my videos. And even worst, they spied on my albums and pictures on Facebook!


1. Madam HMA said, "you don't need to be Siti Nurhaliza (a Malaysian top singer), just be yourself!".
2. Madam SS said, "why are you doing all this? just stop it already".
3. Madam MMA said something related to Islam, "Do you follow what the Qur'an says? Well, well, well... since it's you, I know youu didn't".
4. Madam ZY said, "what's with those ugly and meaningless pictures? with poses like a b*tch, what's your point?".


I could just ignore what other peoples says, but I'm worried about my SPM examination (Malaysian Certificate of Education) next month. If they still keep their eyes on me and found out that I still carry on posting videos, it is not impossible for them to send this matter to the Principal. 


I don't want to have this send to my parent's knowledge. It's not like they didn't know my video project, they knew about this and yet, they are encouraging me to do what I want as long as it's not wrong. But I know how the school works, the teachers could make up any kind of excuses just to draw me down. And so, I have come to a conclusion: I will have to remove all of my videos and pictures.

My pictures that I posted on websites like Photobucket, Twitpic, Blogger and even Facebook are all removed. My videos on Youtube and Facebook has also been deleted. Except for my second Youtube account, hidayuki13, I still keep them on. Feel free to contact me. But I'm sorry to say, the real Hidayuki's face is no longer available for public views.


I'm very sorry, I may looked like a loser for waving a white flag now. But this is the best, I need to put my future on top priority. However, it's not like I'm quitting myself from singing and dancing. No, no, no!


That's a BIG lie! 


I'll only sing and dance to myself. To NO ONE but myself.  It feels like a big stone is on my shoulders, it made my chest wants to break down and even my heart is screaming in pain! The bright future I once desire has disappeared.


And so, to all of you who viewed my videos, thank you very much. I'm sorry about this, I am not suitable to be a public figure. I'll miss chatting about my videos with my friends. but there's nothing I can do. I'm really sorry. My brain is not functioning well right now.


 There are some pending requests from my friends, I'll still work on them. Be sure to wait for it! I'll only show them for a limited time.


Just want to share, I was about to post another dance video of me, covering Morning Musume's Naichau Kamo. But it looks like just a dream now. 


Last but not least, thank you for reading this blog! Hope I'll wake up in a fine, good and relaxing mood tomorrow. Good night everyone!

ℒℴvℯ,

♀key♂

Confession Mission: Mission SUCCESS!!!

Good evening!
It's Hidayuki!


How do you do?
Hidayuki hope that you're doing well.

Nee, know something?
For the first time since I entered high school,
I finally have crush on someone from my school!

It's been four years, since the last time I have a crush on a boy,
and it was in elementary school.

The boy I like is my junior from school,
he's a year younger than me.
So, I decided to confess.

It took three attempts for my feelings reach to him.

1. We (my 3 best friends and I) chase after him. We went to his class, then the school hall and then go back to the class. He ran away! ! ! To make it (a little) clear to him, I sent a private message to him on Facebook.

He didn't reply the message, but I won't give up. So, I decided to launch 2nd attempt.

2. I saw him in the library, so I ask a friend to pass a card to him. I wrote my confession in it. I told him (in the card) about my feelings and that I will wait for his reply at the senior's mini convocation by the end of the month. Although he didn't know me, he turned me down. Perhaps it's because he was shocked, and his other classmates were there, and he was embarassed.

He clearly rejected me, but he gave me an instant at that time. So I decided to give him more time to think. I won't give up!
I launched the 3rd attempt on last Thursday. I did it to remind him about my confession at the other day.

3. We left a letter. In that letter, I wrote my feelings again with the same card and the same deadline  I used in the 2nd attempt. From a freelance spy that I hired from the same class as he is, it has been confirmed that he received that letter. I was told that he even keep it, after opening and reading the letter.

And so, I was happy that it finally reached him!

all I need to do now is to wait for his reply by the end of the month, October 31st. The day of my mini convocation.

If he didn't reply and answer me by then, I'll take it as an unrequited love.

ℒℴvℯ,

♀key♂